Halsey’s raw ‘without me’ ema performance ended with a downpour

Before she began singing “Without Me” literally on her hands and knees onstage at the 2018 MTV EMA, Halsey revealed that this was her first time singing it live. Not just on television, mind you — first time ever. Knowing that makes everything she did up there even more impressive.

Halsey sang the song, sure, but she did it while chained to a post, enclosed in a glass case (of emotion), and, eventually, drenched in a downpour. It mirrored the video’s depressive intensity, visually capturing the rawness of a song Halsey said she “cried the whole time” while recording.